The idea was to do it more like a race test, to see where my performance was after such a long time without racing due to a hip injury.
I didn't know what to expect, also because I was still not 100% adapted with the altitude effect. And I did feel breathless just after a couple meters of the swim start.
(chilling a while before the start!)
By the end of the mile 24 on bike course I was not even hitting my worse expectations, and some days you just need to accept defeat. One of my favorite authors, Paulo Coelho, has a brilliant description for it:
“Defeat is for the valiant. Only they will know the honor of losing and the joy of winning
I am not here to tell you that defeat is a part of life: we all know that.
Only the defeated know Love.
Because it is in the realm of love that we fight our first battles – and generally lose.
I am here to tell you that there are people who have never been defeated.
They are the ones who never fought.
They managed to avoid scars, humiliations, feelings of helplessness, as well as those moments when even warriors doubt the existence of God.’’
Manuscript Found In Accra – Paulo Coelho”
Therefore being defeat as part of victory, on that day I was far from any good result and I was nothing excited to start those 10k run. And also motivated by the recent injury to not push that run.
I stopped at the end of the bike course, and right there was Siri, my amazing coach, who didn't let me look down, and pointed out some important details for my next races. The new goal is to have my body 100%, injury free, and ready to load it with wkouts and next races!
If defeat is necessary, this was the first time I considered myself out of dispute. Before I could be happy just by doing my best and would considerate some facts as a lack of luck. But on this time I didn't see any advantage of giving my best effort to reach maybe 60% of potential. The goal now is to reach those 100%!
When facing major defeats, beyond the lessons sometimes you also get rewards from fantastic friends!! lol
Thanks Sara!! I loved the note and fancy beer!! #surprise :)